God told me to audition for a play.
Now I’m sure this sounds absurd to you but really, He’s asked stranger things of me.
Allow me to give you some context. I was at school a few or so ago. All my classes are in the Arts building, so I never have to leave. I have over like, an hour and a half between my Psych class and my Math class, so usually I curl up in a corner and read, or go in the library and use the computer. On certain days when I’m feeling active, I do laps around the Arts building. But basically, I never leave. Well, on this one particular day, my feet had started to hurt from sitting for so long. I gathered my things and began to walk. However, instead of following my usual routine, I began to wander. It didn’t even dawn on me until I was in another building that I had left the Arts one. That was when my eyes happened to glance over at our Box Office. “I didn’t even know we had a Box Office.” I thought. That was when I noticed the poster. “columbinus.”It said. But that was too good to be true.
I walked closer.
And it was.
It was a play inspired by the events at Columbine High School in the shooting in 1999. The shooting I had read about countless times, the shooting that was referenced a bunch in my favorite novel, We Need To Talk About Kevin. It was the type of play that simply had my name written all over it. As a psychology student, I read all about this stuff. It was the only poster in the whole school, it just happened to be a subject I know about and care about, and to top it off, I wasn’t even supposed to be in the Events building to begin with. Audition sign ups were being held.
So I signed up.
Flash forward to the day of auditions. I got there after my workout so I was all sweaty and gross, dressed in workout shorts and a cut up t-shirt, and shoving a quest bar in my mouth. But since I had used all my energy, I was quite relaxed. I filled out paper work and went to get a script to read. The first female on the list was “Rebel,” which got my attention, I almost grabbed that one, until I saw the next one.
I gave God a smirk and picked up her script. It was literally a prayer. I couldn’t help but laugh.
Five minutes later it was my turn to go. The director was there and we laughed because my name is Faith and that was who I was auditioning for. She asked if I had any experience and I told her absolutely none. I went through the monologue, in which I had to ad lib it a ton and I thought I did…okay. But the director said, “And this is your first audition? Because that was great!”
We had our first meeting the other day and it went great. I think I’m already seeing the ways God is using this or testing me. See, the play has a ton of language. And in some cases, I’m supposed to swear. I told the director I don’t swear and instead of telling me to suck it up, she said if anything makes me uncomfortable, let her know and she’ll work it out. Another line came up that I couldn’t say, so I stayed quiet; someone told me to go, but the guy next to me said “She can’t. She doesn’t swear.” And he totally backed me up.
And that was my first day at rehearsal. I am so excited! I also found out it’s a contest with us and a ton of other schools; if we do well, we could advance to the next round and go to Michigan and if we win that….we go to Washington DC. My ultimate prayer is DC. I want to go. But beyond that, I want God to be glorified. Obviously I’m in this production for a reason, because I’m not an actress. There’s no reason I should have gotten that part unless God wanted it. My “religion” has already been brought up in the group, so I’m praying for opportunities to share the gospel, and if we do win this, to bring the gospel all the way to Washington DC.
I have to so much more I want to share about this production but I think I’m going to wait on that until after we’ve been rehearsing for a while. Seriously, this show is powerful. It’s hard because it deals with such mature topics, and topics that makes people uncomfortable but I want people to be aware that this stuff happens.
That’s all I’m going to say about that until next time.
Pray for me during all this craziness. Pray for God to be glorified in all this. Even in the cussing, in the content, and amidst the heartache. This is going to be a super hard production to be in, but I cannot wait to see God at work.