We’ve only met once.
I saw a picture of a bunch of people gathered together to pray for a friend. It made me wonder…how many people would get together to pray on your behalf? Sure if they heard about your story, about where you’re at, about your hard life, they might say a quick prayer. But in all honesty, who would go out of their way to pray for you on a regular basis?
It’s been over 5 years. I don’t see you anymore but every night before I go to bed, God says to me “pray.” And I do. For you.
I saw fruit once. That was enough. One time. One sentence. That was all the proof I needed that you could be redeemed. Not that I ever doubted you.
Call me crazy. Call me a freak. A weirdo. Obsessive. Odd. I don’t care.
I’m a fanatic. For Christ. And I couldn’t care less about what other people have to say about me.
Here’s what I want you to know: you are always braver than you think. You’re not a lost cause. You have made mistakes, but you don’t have to keep making mistakes. Sometimes you just need one person the believe in you, so know that I do. I always have. And I always will.
Some people look at you and they shake their heads because you’re a sinner. You’ve screwed up. You got into some deep crap. They say its a shame where you are now. They judge you but they won’t offer a hand to help you up.
But I think of you and think of someone who will do anything to be noticed, because you’re so scared of being forgotten. You don’t care if your reputation is good or bad, as long as everyone knows it. I’m sure you’ve cried. Many of nights probably. But no one will ever see those tears. I see the hurt you’ve felt, I know a lot of it is because of your parents who split. I know how that feels. I know you feel deeply. You love even deeper than you hate, but you would never let anyone know that. I’ve seen you as you’ve tried to satisfy yourself with anything and everything the world had to offer. And I’ve watched as it never got you anywhere.
I don’t know if you feel guilt or shame, I don’t know if you’re grieving your situation or if you think you’re cool because of it, but I know that it gets better.
I know that you have a future. God has a plan for your life. I know because I used to think my world was over, but you showed me that it wasn’t.
I don’t know why God decided to put you on my heart, nor do I know why He chose me for the task; because surely there are better equipped people out there. But He doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called. I’m just going to walk out on a limb with this one.
I know you can be great. I don’t know how many people have ever told you that. But I promise, you have a great future ahead of you. Life is more than this moment or these struggles. Our past doesn’t have to dictate our future. And most of all, you can be so much more than this. You are loved. You are being prayed for. You can be a world changer.
I hope that one day I’ll be able to see you again. I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I know something has to. I have asked God to break your heart, to let you feel a holy sorrow, one that leads to redemption. Your story isn’t over yet. Because you are amazing, you just need to be reminded.