So I’m 16 now. I’ll be 17 at the end of the month. When I was younger I had always imagined myself at this age. In my dream future self I had more piercings, a better sense of style, confidence, a drivers license, and a boyfriend. I have none of the above. But that’s ok. Its all in God’s timing and I’ve mentioned in previous posts that I’m working on becoming the person I’ve always wanted to be so hopefully I’ll get most of those things I listed, but I can’t control that last one. See, I’ve never dated anyone before. Ever. And I’m proud of myself for that. Because I’m not going to just give myself away to just anyone. Nope. You gotta fight for me. Because I know my worth in Christ and if you ain’t willing to make sacrifices for me, sorry dude. So this is a letter to you, my future boyfriend. Here are some things you need to know.
Hopefully you’ll know without me having to say this but you need to ask my Mommerz or my older brother before you date me. That’s just how it goes. I expect you to be a gentleman and to show me that chivalry isn’t dead. Also, A Walk To Remember is one of my favorite movies so I expect you to take tips from Landon Carter. I want someone who will go above and beyond for me, to think outside the box. I love the little things: random acts of kindness and silly things and creative things. I don’t want to have to tell you a lot of this stuff because I want you to know me well enough to know it already. I want you to take interest in the things I like and to love me for me, even on my worst days.
In case you weren’t aware, I date for marriage. Meaning if we date, I can see myself marrying you so you had better think about that and if you don’t feel the same way then maybe we shouldn’t be dating.
But onto less serious things, I love pictures so lets take a ton of those. I really don’t care what we do as long as I do them with you, so we can go wherever you like on dates. I will always try to listen to you and help you even when I don’t understand. I’m working on making myself a Proverbs 31 woman but I’m not going to be perfect, I have my flaws, and you’ll soon figure that out. But I care about you even when we fight. Another thing about me: I love cheesy romantic quotes and one liners. Beware. I’m a hopeless romantic at heart even though I try to hide it and that’s gonna kill me one day. I also really love John Hughes films, especially Pretty In Pink because I think Duckie Dale is like, the best. (Take notes.) I get really jealous easily and I’m trying to work on that so please be patient. I’m also an overthinker and I cry for no apparent reason! Just so ya know. I’m also really bad at speaking and I’m shy but I like to push myself outside of my comfort zone. I have a
slight obsession with Star Wars and if you don’t think its the greatest thing in the world we need to breakup you had better be able to tolerate my love for it. And all my general geekiness for that matter. And the fact that I post my life on a blog that’s gotten over 5,000 total pageviews.
And most of all, I want to grow in Christ with you. I want to send you random bible verses and have bible studies and pray with you and worship with you. (by the way, its so freakin attractive when guys worship. Just sayin. Christian girl probs.) I want to be able to run to you and tell you all my God sightings and how He’s speaking to me and when I’m confused about His calling for my life, I want you to help me figure it out. I want to tell you about all my prayer requests. And I want you to do the same for me. I want to hear all about the ways God is working in your life and all the crazy ideas you have to further the kingdom. I also plan on continuing this ministry of mine so you had better be prepared for that. And I wouldn’t object if you wanted to help out…
I want to be more than just “boyfriend and girlfriend.” I want to be best friends. I want to be able to tell you anything and I want you to feel secure when you come to me. I want to do stupid and silly things together and just enjoy your company. Lets laugh together and tell each other lame jokes and laugh even when we mess up the punch line. Lets go on adventures!
Now, you’ll always be my best friend first and foremost but lets just be the cutest couple ever. lol. I’ll wear your hoodies and I promise that when I look at you my face will always have the biggest smile on it. I could go on for days about fantasies of mine but I’d rather not. I want to love you more and more every day and I want you to love me the same way. But I also want you to pursue Christ. Pursue Him with every part of your being. Be a leader to me and show me new things and give me new perspectives. I don’t mean to scare you but my dad left me and that left a gaping hole in my heart and it has me a bit worried for my own future, so you need to show me you can fight for me and love me alone. I am a prize and I don’t give myself to just anybody.
So there it is. But before I go I want to leave you with my favorite song and it always makes me cry. Its a love song of course. I don’t know where you are or who you are or when we’ll meet or how far away that future is, but I know that I’m
so stinkin worried really excited for it all. I’d wait forever for you, but I would prefer not to. But all in God’s timing right? So you keep working on becoming my prince and I’ll get working on being a princess.
Your Future Girlfriend,
P.S my best friend has a list. That’s all you need to know.